numb

i called back my mom late last night. she took my brother to pgh after yet again another episode. after a series of tests he was diagnosed with bilor disorder and depression. he will need medication for him to function.

for the second time in my life i heard my mother cry. she is so tired. so tired. so tired. i could not bear to hear my mother like that. i felt so powerless to help her.
this is too much for her.

i called you after this, because at that moment i lost it.

i shouldn't have called you.

i forgot i am alone now.